Isn't it annoying when you can't actually have sex with your partener becaue there away somewhere or other and one or both of you are relly horny? well last night that happened to me and the joys of text sex will definatly be returning. I jad no ides how good it was(maybe its just the guy) but what ever it was it was fantastic. I love it from now on and it was very annoying yesterday when everyone was here and i couldn't control my excitment too well.
But i did manage to hold out til i was compleatly alone so i could sort myslef out and with the help of my boyfriend sending me texts tellign me what he's going to do to me when we're together and my imagination i can tell you it eas a wonderful night and i plan to be selfish and have another night hehe
loves x

When James tried to push Sarah's head towards his penis do you no what she did?

She bit his penis constantly while giving him the blowjob and he bled and had to go to hospital. When the doctor, who was female, asked what happened Sarah said "He tried to push my head down" and then the doctor had a go at James and said he deserve what he got. He couldn't use his penis for sexual activity's for 3 weeks and it hurt when he used the bathroom. But they are still together an he hasn't forced her in to it since.

The funny thing is she was that sneaky aboutit he never knew she'd hurt him till he came.

I am wonder woman, watch me twirl.....

hehe anyway, i was think cat woman actually, or a devil or police woman, or maid i dunno which would i suit do you think?

Went and bought my canvas for my second art exam today wasn't fun, went with Nathean my gay boyfriend, bought some paint too, so i can paint the background gray(what a lovely colour huh?) yer but on to the naughty bit we went in too Toys R U's becuase its next door to hobby craft and we went jumping on the lil trampolines and going down the lil kiddie slides hehe and then we went over to the action figures and there was Dr Who ones of David Tennant*drools* oh he is so yummy and i had a lil fantsy of him and me without clothes(oh my how rude of me) twas good but there was a lil boy stood there wanting a darlek and he brought me out of my fantasy. but it was a nice fantasy i just want himto whisk me off in that tardis of his or when he was in the cassanova series when my obsesion started, or when he was in harry potter oh i always like a bad boy. He's just that guy i will dream about for years too come, oh how wonderfull those years will be . Ummm.........
Hehe i need to clean out my brain cause i keep off loading it on here. i need some soap just not dove urgh that stuff always makes me want to yack.

so today well its not that interesting.

- Had an art exam, went ok i guess drew my niece and i in the centre and monsters around the outside for her nightmares and i'm wrapping her with protection (the theme is wraps)
- Hetti told me her boyfriend Dave(one that hits on me and constantly trys to get me alone) has asked for a brake. BUT. Can she still be there for him when he's better? Two word's. No and Twat.
- I have to work and i only found out at lunch today
- A very good friend and Ex of mine, Leo has been dumped today and i can't be my usuall comforting self and shag his brains out (because of my stupid promises) and help him release his anger and make him feel better.
- I have to have a very sneaky shower at work becuase i can't have one now and i have greasy hair
- I need to revise german more becuase i ahve my oral's(ooo-ee) in 2 weeks
- Its bloody raining and i'm wearing a very short white dress because everythign else is in the wash
- I need to finish my Torey Hayden book because i want to start my other books.
- I've had a song in my head all day that i can't remember what its called but oh well i'll member some day.
- I didn't sleep much becuase of worrying about this exam

So thats my day, interesting isn't it? well no but enjoy

I love my best mate Dave, i love him alot. He's helped me survive though the past couple of years. Even when i was on my last thread and tried to kill myself he was there. White Knight to the rescue. He saved my life.
And now that i try and save him from someone who i know he wont be happy with he leaves me. It feels like he's just threw me in the dirt. I didn't mean to interfear with his relationship but she did nothing but smile and blink! She ignored me to hell and was never nice and then she goes and ruin's my friend's new £1000 white dress for a dinner party with my dad and she wouldn't apoligse. That dress will take over £300 to repaired and get cleaned and its ok becasue we have the money but she didn't even say sorry.
So Talie and i Yelled at her for a bit then Talies boyfriend told her to get out. Now Dave is blaming the whole thing on me and i just feel like crying. Why is the one guy in the world who was always there for me hurting me so much now? He didn't like her that much, she was just good sex for him. So why?
And it doesn't help that i'm talking to Declan(we patched things up) and he's asking me whats wrong and its over something as stupid as our friend sam telling me he was flirting with a telephone woman at Dell but i wasn't all to ahppy then so i started crying, anyway but i'm crying now and that just makes me feel worse.

ok i can't be bothered linking things togethere and what not so i'll just give you the songs

now these are song that i'm loving so much right now cause mostly there sad and about relationships.........not very good but they make me feel better

Sugarcult-Pretty Girl(the Way)
this reminds me of my friend leki, she's leaving for france at the end of our exams and i might never see her again.

Hinder-Better Than Me
this is my fav right now the declan guy gave it me and it just makes me cry

Pat Benatar - Love Is A Battlefield
this is such an old song but since 13 going on 30 i've just never got it out of my head

Tarzan - You'll be in my heart by Phil Collins
now i love this film aswell as the song and i can imagin when i'm older singing this to my kids as a night time lullaby

Moulin Rouge - Your Song
now moulin rouge is one of my fav musicals and this song is so great and i've sang it with a guy i no when we did moulin rouge but i didn't play the lead girl i was roxanne but he said i needed to sing this song because i had a great voice:D

Moulin Rouge - El Tango de Roxanne
now in the play i had to dance to this and it was so fun! the guy who was singing almost broke my arm though when he grabbed me and he kissed me, everytime we did it, when our heads were together but it was fun. and i got to dance with lots of guys.but then i got my throat slit so it kinda hurt alot too and getting picked up left me with lots of bruises. i also felt sorry for kate who was lead casue she had to be stripped.

corpse bride - Tears to shed
as soon as i watched this movie i loved this song becuase i was in a bad place and the lyrics where just what i was feeling

Superchick - beauty from pain
i adore this band but this song is so sweet

Black eyed peas ft Papa roach - Anxiety
this song my friend made me listen too when we were skiving together and she explain how she use to listen t it so he wouldn't hurt her self becasue of a stupid guy we know

I'll post more later but i can't be bothered now

haha that looks funny

anyway i'm ill and i can't go to dannis party tonight which i'm not too sad about becuase last time her mum yelled at me for being drunk when i wasn't and i ended up kissing one of danni's friends

but that was years ago, i still didnt really want to go, i think the only reason i was going was because i wanted to just talk to aaron cause he's funny when were one to one. and usually sweet. but i'm ill and can't go, oh well.

I've missed two days from work being ill so i have to work sunday night instead and an extra night next week if i wanna get paid . life isn't that fun

in other news declan sent me a really sad song and made me cry last night which didn't help later when i'd just stopped that my friend sammy started saying things and i cried again. and all i could think of that night was Jake(he's a long story i'll post another day)and it will be 4 years this june.

Ok people seem to be confussed about my last post but some of them are dead on, the way i am is quite confusing but basicly i like my sex, very much and i'd do anything to get some, this probably makes me a whore but i dont care, sex isn't a special thing to me, its just another way of interacting, i dont think you have to be inlove to do it, i just think you have to like a person a little. And i try and move from one relationship to another quickly so i dont have to go out and have sex with a random guy i met that night. Which is why i went from Declan to Kale quickly. And in doing this it didn't give me time to get over Declan which is why i'm still in love with him.
Now also i'm very sociable i meet new people every day randomly, some i hit it off with which is where Nu came in. Now in my last blog it was really a rant about what was happening in my life at that moment and not having to give all the details but guys 3,4,5 and 6 i'm not going to ever go out with(again), whilst i've like aaron(Guy2) since i was 10 and that will not change very easily and i dont no how he feels about me but we're usually just friends but once in a while we feel like kissing and do so.
But Declan i'd give up all this for him, the hole sex thing if he wanted me too and today he finaly talked to me like a human being and i like it and i want to be his friend and he said he still loved me too. I should be jumping for joy but i feel like shit, cause i hurt him really badly and i want him back.

i told you my work was bad(well kinda) before but tonight was a nightmare, i almost cried on the job, this one little girl wouldn't go to selep everytime one of us tried she'd start up a tantrum, and in the end i had to do the horrible thing of putting her in the bed and holding the door shut for 5 minutes then going in a putting her back in bed then holding the door again, for all those parents out there who have done that, it's horrible to see a child scream and cry so much.
But when she finally did go to sleep at about half nine, she woke again at around 12 drenched, we had to change her and the bed but in all this she was so tired she fell back to sleep in my arms and i couldn't move til about half one to but her back in bed because we couldn't wake her again. This job really puts me off having children of my own.

I feel like a twat, i'm still in love with this one guy and i'm taking about doing stuff with other guys, maybe i'll beocme a nun that sounds good doesn't it. yes i'll become a nun and the only men i will interact with will be priest who are old and all godly. Yes nun it is, now to start believeing in god................

oh fuck that i'll just stop having sex.

Talie i hate to do it but i'm middle nameing you!

Natalie Angellica Jones STOP TELLING HIM THINGS, for fucks sake girl, yes i still love him and i do not REPEAT DO NOT want him to know!!!!