Ok people seem to be confussed about my last post but some of them are dead on, the way i am is quite confusing but basicly i like my sex, very much and i'd do anything to get some, this probably makes me a whore but i dont care, sex isn't a special thing to me, its just another way of interacting, i dont think you have to be inlove to do it, i just think you have to like a person a little. And i try and move from one relationship to another quickly so i dont have to go out and have sex with a random guy i met that night. Which is why i went from Declan to Kale quickly. And in doing this it didn't give me time to get over Declan which is why i'm still in love with him.
Now also i'm very sociable i meet new people every day randomly, some i hit it off with which is where Nu came in. Now in my last blog it was really a rant about what was happening in my life at that moment and not having to give all the details but guys 3,4,5 and 6 i'm not going to ever go out with(again), whilst i've like aaron(Guy2) since i was 10 and that will not change very easily and i dont no how he feels about me but we're usually just friends but once in a while we feel like kissing and do so.
But Declan i'd give up all this for him, the hole sex thing if he wanted me too and today he finaly talked to me like a human being and i like it and i want to be his friend and he said he still loved me too. I should be jumping for joy but i feel like shit, cause i hurt him really badly and i want him back.